Do It Scared

The other day my best friend sent me this play I wrote for school last year. I forgot how it ended, so as I was reading it I was thinking to myself "what happens next?" It reminded me how much I do love writing. I remember how much fun I had writing that play. Just like I enjoy having this blog. It gives me the chance to connect with people and share my life experiences. I love to encourage people, so knowing there's people all over the world reading these blogs makes me happy. Even if its just a handful of people right now. I hope that they get something out of them too. A reason to keep pushing. A reason to go after their dreams and not hold on to fear. As this blog grows I want to be able to have more of a platform to reach more people. To become motivational speaker, an activist, to reach heights that I've never even imagined. I don't exactly know what my future is going to look like, but I'm going to keep trusting and obeying God in all things. As I do that everything will fall into place how it should. Sometimes I get scared too. But I have so many dreams I would be crazy to not go after them. One of my aunties once told me that dreams are just a figment of your imagination until you make them a reality. Otherwise they're just floating there. I want my dreams to become my reality. In order to do that I have to go after what it is that I want. Even if I have to do it scared.

This past year has been crazy. Around this time last year my best friend and I were planning our move to Memphis. Our house was falling apart and God was pushing us to go and explore the world. Then some things happened and I moved back home while my best friend stayed in Memphis. It was a very difficult transition for me. I didn't want to leave, but I needed to start my own journey. Now I can feel God nudging me to move. I don't know what's going to happen, but I know there's a whole world out there that I want to see. There's experiences that I want to have. I believe that all of my desires will be fulfilled. All I have to do is trust God and move when he says move. I may not always understand, but I'm learning that He always knows what He's doing. So, the phrase "do it scared" is going to be my mediation until it just becomes second nature. Because I don't want to let fear get in the way of my blessings.